I was framed for taking the civil service exam, so I joined the National Security Bureau

Chapter 312

At this point, the eldest cousin sighed and said:

"So, the third brother is not only the one who died the farthest, but also the one who died the most unjustly."

The eldest cousin's eyes revealed deep helplessness and sadness. His gaze seemed to pass through the car window and drifted to the distance, which was the direction of the foreign country where the third brother would stay forever.

Zhang Xing couldn't help but feel a little sad when he heard this.

Zhang Xing had also heard about the things that the eldest cousin said about our soldiers participating in international reconnaissance or various anti-terrorism competitions, and accidents and sacrifices. I remember that a certain Feng media once made a series of programs and broadcast them, but because it involved sensitive topics at the time, only one episode was broadcast later.

The explanation given by a certain Feng media after the suspension of broadcasting was that international military competitions involved important factors such as military secrets and national security of various countries, and were ordered to stop broadcasting.

In fact, this explanation is not the fundamental factor. The root cause lies in:

In today's international arena, although our country's comprehensive influence has gradually increased, the challenges and targets faced in the external environment are still endless. Some international forces with ulterior motives are like poisonous snakes hiding in the dark, ready to attack at any time.

In order to suppress us, they use all means to destroy the environment of fair competition and stop our progress.

Those brave people with lofty ideals, they fight for the honor of the country, shed sweat and blood in the international arena, but what they get in return may be unfair treatment. Lao San is such a person. He was determined to realize his last wish and competed hard for the country in the International Scout Competition. In the end, he won the championship but was secretly plotted. He should have returned with glory and accepted people's cheers and praises, but he stayed in a foreign country forever. His departure is not only a personal tragedy, but also a microcosm of the challenges faced by the country in a complex international environment.

After a sigh, the eldest cousin chewed betel nut and said with emotion:

"And the fourth brother, my fourth brother, I have the best relationship with him. After I joined the Eagle Squad, he taught me the first tactical action of the squad. He and I are the same. Compared with the persistence and diligence of the other elder brothers, our personalities are casual and seek stability. I originally thought that we could be together forever in this life, but unfortunately fate is unpredictable and the way of heaven is unfair."

The eldest cousin's voice was a little low, and the betel nut was chewed mechanically in his mouth, as if that was the only thing he could do to relieve the sadness that kept rising in his heart.

"The fourth child was born in a remote rural area, which seemed to be a corner forgotten by the world. The transportation there was inconvenient and the life there was as hard as a wasteland in winter. His father died of illness at an early age, which was undoubtedly a double blow to the already poor family. It was his mother, that strong woman, who brought him up with great difficulty. She carried the burden of the family on her thin shoulders, which were thin but full of endless strength. In order to give the fourth child a better future, she resolutely sent him to the army. That was the deepest love a mother had for her son, and it was also It was a hope for the future, hoping that his son could get out of that barren land and achieve something. "

"The fourth son did not disappoint his mother's expectations. In the army, he was like a shining star. He trained hard every day and went all out for every mission. His efforts and talents made him stand out in the army. Later, he transferred from the barracks to the national security team. In the following years, he devoted himself to his work, like a tireless bee. He rarely went home to visit his mother. Every time he left home, his heart was full of guilt. But he knew he had a more important mission. "

"Last year, Lao Si's mother was seriously ill and hospitalized. Relatives called Lao Si, and when he hurried home, he learned that his mother was already in the late stage of cancer. Looking at his weak mother on the hospital bed, Lao Si felt heartbroken. His world seemed to collapse at that moment. The once strong him became extremely fragile in front of his mother's bed. He put down all his work and took care of his mother wholeheartedly. In those two months, he stayed with his mother day and night, bringing her tea and water and wiping her body. He took care of his mother carefully. , every move is full of love and care. How he wished that time could stop at this moment, so that he could spend more time with his mother. He was willing to give everything he had in exchange for his mother's health. "

"Later, the General Administration urgently called for a mission. As a national security officer, he knew that his responsibility was heavy. Although he was reluctant, he had to leave his mother and return to work. In the process of carrying out the mission, his heart was always concerned about his mother, just like the string of a kite, one end was tied to the mission, and the other end was tied to his mother's sickbed. He hoped that the mission could be completed as soon as possible.Completed, so that he can go back to accompany his mother. "

"But after completing the mission, Lao Si received a call from home, saying that his mother was dying. When Lao Si answered the phone, I was beside him. Lao Si cried at that time. It was a desperate cry, as if all the grief in his heart was released. This was the first time I saw him cry since I met him. Later, he made a report and rushed back to his hometown like crazy. Unfortunately, fate was so unfair, and many things in the world were so cruel. When he hurried back to his hometown, he still didn't have time to send his mother off for the last time. "

"Later, he personally took care of his mother's funeral and called me that night. He kept crying and complaining that he was sorry for his mother. He said that he owed his mother too much over the years, and when his mother needed him the most, he couldn't always be by her side. He felt that he was an unfilial son and failed to let his mother feel more warmth and love in her last days. "

"Later he told me that he didn't want to do this anymore and wanted to stay in his hometown to keep vigil for his mother. He asked for my opinion at the time. I didn't think much about it and asked him to wipe his tears and go back to the bureau. I said something very high-sounding at the time. I told him that there is no home without a country, and that the dead cannot be resurrected. He should devote all his limited life to the protection of national security to comfort his mother's spirit in heaven. In fact, it was just a saying. At that time, there were only two of us left in the Eagle Team. I just needed Lao Si to come back and fight with me. At that time, I only thought about our team and our mission, but ignored Lao Si's deep pain. "Later, Lao Si listened to my advice and drove back to Kyoto the next morning. However, fate was so unfair. On his way back, he encountered a mudslide. The raging mudslide roared down from the mountain and swallowed his car in an instant. When the rescuers arrived, it was too late. Lao Si left me and the Eagle Squad forever. The picture of the car buried by the mudslide was like a deep scar, engraved on my heart, and could never be erased. " "When I learned the news at that time, I fell into deep self-blame and pain. I kept asking myself, if I hadn't persuaded Lao Si to come back, maybe he wouldn't have died. He could quietly guard his mother's tomb in his hometown and spend the happy time that should have belonged to him. I replayed our conversation in my mind over and over again. Every word was like a knife, piercing my heart. I felt that I pushed him to death and it was my selfishness that made him lose his life. "

The cousin calmly recounted the sacrifice of the four members of the Eagle Squad. Although Zhang Xing did not see his cousin crying, and his tone of voice was even a little casual, Zhang Xing could understand his cousin's sadness that could not be sadder.

The more casual he was, the more it meant that the pain in his heart had penetrated deep into his bones and could not be expressed in words or tears.

These lost comrades were the eternal pain in his heart. He could only use a seemingly relaxed tone to cover up his inner sadness, just like covering the wound with a thin layer of gauze. Although the wound could not be seen on the surface, the pain was tormenting him all the time.

Zhang Xing connected with his previous words that he relied on eating betel nuts to refresh himself, Zhang Xing understood that his cousin was using this method to escape those painful memories. He didn't dare to stop himself, and didn't dare to give himself time to miss those lost comrades, because once he fell into memories, the pain would drown him like a tide.

The stimulation of betel nut may make him forget the pain temporarily and let him focus on the task at hand, but this stimulation is only temporary. The death of the Eagle Squadron will eventually become a pain that he can never eliminate in his life.

Zhang Xing sighed deeply in his heart. The death of the Eagle Squad also reminded Zhang Xing of the sentence in Laozi's Tao Te Ching:

"Heaven and earth are not benevolent, and they regard all things as straw dogs; saints are not benevolent, and they regard the people as straw dogs. Between heaven and earth, is it like a bellows? ”

In this world, fate seems to be particularly cruel to some people. The more humble the life form, the less so-called "favor" it seems.

This is the case with the Eagle Squad, and the team leader Geng Jianhui. Perhaps there are many more like them. Some sacrifices will be remembered, but some sacrifices will be buried for various reasons, just overshadowed by the peace and prosperity in front of them.

Under the appearance of peace, how many heroic tragedies have been drowned, and their sacrifices have become unknown stories. Only those who really understand them know the endless sorrow hidden behind them.

Seeing Zhang Xing fall silent, the eldest cousin sighed casually and said:

"Oh, I wanted to explain to you why I was the only one left in the Eagle Team, but I kept going off topic and made you feel uncomfortable. Actually, it’s nothing. In our line of work, although we don’t have to worry about our lives all day, sacrifices are common. Don’t be too sad, so as not to affect the execution of this mission. "

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