I was framed for taking the civil service exam, so I joined the National Security Bureau

Chapter 272

When he said this, the eyes of the team leader Geng Jianhui suddenly turned red without any warning, and the tears in his eyes seemed to be ready to burst out at any time.

Zhang Xing looked at him steadily, and could clearly read from his eyes a kind of pain and struggle that had been deeply suppressed for many years, which seemed to be an unspeakable heaviness.

"I had just been promoted to the leader of the third group. At that time, I was full of ambition and passion, with a burning flame in my heart. I only wanted to make more contributions to the country and the people, and devote everything I had without reservation."

Geng Jianhui spoke slowly, his voice trembling slightly, and continued:

"That time, I participated in a very important arrest operation. The tension and intensity of that operation are still vivid in my mind. During the fierce fight with the enemy's spy forces, I was accidentally kicked hard by the other party. At that moment, severe pain came, but I endured the pain and continued to complete the task."

"The mission is over Afterwards, I came back to check the injury. I didn't find anything abnormal at the time, so I didn't take it too seriously. After that, I had a short vacation. In fact, your sister-in-law and I have always liked children. With the urging of relatives and friends, we decided to start preparing for pregnancy and look forward to the arrival of new life. "

"However, fate played a cruel joke at this time. Days passed, but your sister-in-law was still unable to conceive. We were full of doubts and went to the hospital for a check-up with trepidation. "

Geng Jianhui's voice became deeper and deeper, as if every word had exhausted all his strength.

"When the test results came out, I felt like the whole world was falling apart. I didn't expect that the problem was with me. The doctor told me that I had suffered a serious injury to my genitals during the fight, which led to my loss of fertility. This news was like a bolt from the blue, and it completely broke me down."

"After learning about this, I fell into endless self-blame. I felt like a sinner. I was sorry for your sister-in-law. She loved children so much and was looking forward to having a child of our own. But because of me, this simple wish could not be realized. I couldn't forgive myself for a while and felt that I didn't deserve her love."

"I Because of the medical report, your sister-in-law and I stayed at home for two days. I don't know how many tears your sister-in-law shed during those two days. I felt like my heart was pierced by countless needles when I saw her sad face. However, on the morning of the third day, your sister-in-law got up and suddenly came to comfort me with deep affection. She told me that she had figured it out and that not having a child was not a big deal. She had only one request, or request, for me not to divorce her. "

"After that, I originally planned to write a report to report my injury to the organization, but your sister-in-law stopped me. She said worriedly that if I wrote this report, I would lose face and might become a topic of conversation in the team. The subject of discussion after dinner, she didn't want her man to lose face in the bureau. I understood her painstaking efforts and finally followed her advice. On the one hand, it was to satisfy her. On the other hand, to be honest, I didn't want to add burden to the organization, and I didn't want to gain too much sympathy because of this matter. "

"But the two of us haven't had children yet, so we have to give an explanation to those who care about us. Later, in order to give an explanation for this matter, your sister-in-law announced to the public that the two of us are DINKs, and we don't want to have children, but just want to continue to enjoy our time together. These statements were later spread to the bureau, and the people in the bureau still think that your sister-in-law and I are DINKs. "

"In fact, your sister-in-law is because of the DINK thing , over the years, we have endured too much accusation and pressure from relatives and friends. They don’t understand why we don’t want children. Some even say coldly and say behind your sister-in-law’s back that she is greedy for pleasure, but your sister-in-law never takes these to heart. She always bears everything silently. She said that as long as the two of us are together, it is enough. For me, she does not hesitate to reduce contact with relatives and friends, stay away from those gossips, and use her strength and courage to protect our small home and my dignity. "

Zhang Xing listened quietly, his heart was like a raging sea, and he could not hide his grief. He never thought that the reason why the team leader Geng Jianhui had no children in these years was actually due to a national security arrest operation.

What made him even more sad was that Geng Jianhui was obviously injured in the mission, but he concealed all this from the organization.

A man lost his fertility because of the mission. For so many years, he has endured this pain and sadness alone, and never mentioned it to anyone. How much torment should he have endured in his heart for so many years!

Although Zhang Xing and Geng Jianhui only had a shortThey have been together for more than half a year, but in his impression, the team leader Geng Jianhui has always been like a patriarch, silently guarding the three groups and uniting everyone.

Since he joined Guoan, he has worked hard in this position for more than 20 years, but now he is still the team leader. Over the years, Geng Jianhui's efforts are obvious to all. He is like a tenacious screw, silently playing his role in the big machine of Guoan. His efforts even surpass most people. As he said, when he joined Guoan, he could only be regarded as a player on the passing line, but over the years, he has been tempered in Guoan. Whether it is experience against the enemy or command ability, he has long surpassed the level of ordinary team leaders.

However, he is still a team leader, the oldest team leader in the National Security Bureau. The reason for this may be due to his personality. He is honest and never competes for fame and fortune. He always starts from the so-called interests of the organization, but often ignores his own needs and feelings. This kind of personality makes him always choose to give in when facing opportunities, and the result can only be to treat himself badly.

On the other hand, in this real world, the complexity of human nature and the laws of society also play a certain role. Because of his non-competition, the superiors may inadvertently ignore his efforts. Even if the leaders affirm his efforts, they may not think of him first when training key personnel.

This may be the fate of the so-called honest people!

In this world, there has never been absolute fairness. The word "fairness" is just a seemingly beautiful concept created by the superiors in order to balance the psychology of those who are honest and silent in the ruling class.

After listening to Geng Jianhui's words, although Zhang Xing was filled with grief, anger and other mixed emotions, he still alertly felt that Geng Jianhui had other intentions in telling him these things at this moment.

Geng Jianhui took a deep puff of the cigarette, slowly exhaled the smoke, and then continued to shake his head and smiled:

"I have never mentioned these things to anyone, even Director Song and Captain Jiang don't know. Zhang Xing, you have only been in the team for more than half a year. To me, you are just a new member of the family of Group 3, but since the day you joined Group 3, I feel that you are different from other members."

"Captain Jiang once said that you are the most outstanding Guoan seedling he has ever seen, and this is indeed the case. During the training and growth process in the group during this period of time, you have fully demonstrated your talent and ability in the cause of Guoan. Everyone in the group likes to call you Koi, but I prefer to regard you as my family, a family that I think should be like."

"So, I will tell you all my unbearable past. By the way, you won't laugh at me, right?"

When Zhang Xing heard these words, he was moved in an indescribable way. His throat seemed to be choked by something and he choked a little.

During this journey, Team Leader Geng Jianhui has long become a brother who is both a teacher and a friend in Zhang Xing's mind. Now, Geng Jianhui can treat him as a family member, which is undoubtedly a great affirmation and trust for Zhang Xing.

"Team Leader, please don't say that. How can I be qualified to laugh at you? No one in the National Security Bureau is qualified to laugh at you. After we get out, I will definitely explain everything in detail to the organization. Since you treat me as a family member, then as a family member, I will never allow you to bear all the sufferings alone."

Geng Jianhui heard Zhang Xing's words, first shook his hand, and then a bright smile bloomed on his face, which was full of relief and kindness.

"Zhang Xing, you are more courageous and practical than me. I still remember what you said at the beginning, 'Seek wealth and honor in danger, catch big fish, get bonuses, serve the country and make money at the same time'."

"At that time, several people in the group laughed at you for being a money-grubber, but only I know that your character is the most real and best character. To be honest, I really envy you and admire you. If I could live again, I also hope to be a person like you, but unfortunately, time cannot flow back and can't go back."

When Geng Jianhui said the last few words, his voice was slightly low. Zhang Xing inadvertently caught the loneliness that flashed in his eyes. The three words "can't go back" suddenly hit Zhang Xing's heart and hit his heartstrings heavily.

The next second, Geng Jianhui sighed slightly, and then his eyes suddenly became solemn and looked straight at Zhang Xing.

"Okay, idle time.Let's stop here and talk about our current situation. I know you have your own ideas, but I hope you can listen to me this time. "

Geng Jianhui's tone became serious and earnest:

"We are now surrounded by the enemy. The situation is very critical. It is almost impossible to break out with the strength of you and me alone."

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