svetikya Chapter 645 My Heart...
Chapter 645 My Heart...
"Have we really never met before?"
"……certainly."
"It's really strange. From the first moment we met, I felt that you were very familiar. I wanted to look into your eyes and wipe away your tears, but you are not the kind of person who cries easily..."
"Then I'll cry for a while, can you help me wipe my tears?"
"Ok?"
"I've been researching some special subjects lately, with the goal of detecting the difference in emotions when we shed tears on others versus when we shed tears on ourselves."
"This is a strange topic, but I can help you. If so, it might be a little intimate. Would I make you uncomfortable?"
"No, go ahead and try, I'll do my best to make me cry uh, wait a minute, let me pinch myself."
I pinched the inside of my thigh hard but I didn't feel like crying. The pain was there, but no tears came out.
So, think carefully about the good times.
Beauty and pain exchange with each other. Thinking back to the most beautiful and perfect moment that came, and the pain of being separated from the loved one forever in the next moment, tears seemed to finally flow out at this moment.
His hands were hotter than imagined, and the movement of gently wiping away the tears was so gentle to those blue eyes that it made people feel like they had returned to the past.
At that time, he would also wipe away my tears... Sorry, you can no longer wipe away my tears, you can no longer share my pain, everything exists but it is extremely painful...
"Okay, I get it, how do you feel now?"
He was very calm and did not make any move, but when the other party wiped the last tear, he spoke in a tone that could even be considered cold.
"Well, after you wiped your tears, I felt my heart hurt a little more. Well, it's a strange feeling. Am I someone who will fall in love at first sight with others?"
"He looks like a guy who is just after a womanizing encounter. In my impression, he is already a negative person."
"Um...I'm so sorry."
So good, so cute...
"Okay, let's not talk about this anymore. By the way, have you eaten? You should have had breakfast this morning, right? It should be almost time for lunch now..."
"Your coat is covered in mud..."
"It was accidentally stuck. If nothing else, I have to go get something first. Bye."
His eyes were always on the dirty cloak. He returned to the room and dealt with these things first. First of all, the most important part of the lotus is the petals. Take off all the petals, and then the stamens. They also have some medicinal value, but the value is different. What is needed is the petals.
What Yue Lian needs is the heart of the flower. I tasted a little bitter. The lotus seeds are still a little too bitter. But there will always be people who like the bitter taste, just like the people I met before. Bitterness is also a good seasoning...
Maybe the future will swallow everything...
"..."
A bitter future is still a future.
I suddenly realized that I was inexplicably unhappy again, and I was in a daze for more and more time. I need to find a way to cure this special disease. Will the gods have a way? For the immortal body and the short-lived soul...
"If there is no other way, I have to find a way myself... Even if it means bitter fruit for the future, I should swallow it, because everything has already been planted and everything should have come to an end long ago."
After everything is ready, the next thing is the morning dew. You can pick it the next day, and it has to be picked early. If it is too late, the dew will be eaten by insects. The dew is not very clean, right? Why is there such a strange thing? As a medicine, maybe it is because the people of Teyvat are different from normal humans, in which case it is normal. Teyvat is really magical...
There were a lot of flowers in bloom, so I picked some that had already bloomed and gently sniffed the flowers. The fragrance was still lingering in my nose, just like every time I smelled flowers in bloom in the past, but there were also some differences. All flowers are unique, and so are all people.
You should not dwell on the past. Even if his soul did love you, he is a new person now. He should not be trapped by your side. He should live his own important life...
After understanding this, an even more indescribable sadness came out. He was the previous life, but he was not him. People need to know the importance of emotions and people need to know the differences in everything.
Time will change a lot. Love and hate will be intertwined to give people wails of pain and despair, but it will also give people a future full of hope.
"If I really let you go, will everything be better?"
If I really let go of love, will everything be different?
People who grow up in fear will cling to everything even more, just like a drowning person who will grab others at all costs, even if it means drowning them.
Time is desperate, and so is the future.
"I love you, I am grateful for your appearance, which has brought infinite vitality to my life, but I also hate you, I hate your departure, which has filled my future with despair and sorrow again. I know that I should not pin all my emotions on others, but for me at that time, your appearance was different. You were the one who slowly brought me out of the darkness, but pushed me into an even more bottomless abyss..."
"Will you hate me before you die? Because I can't save you, what will you be thinking at the moment of death? I'm really sorry, I can't save you, I'm a coward and incompetent person. No matter how I remember that day, I will never forget my hatred and it will never stop..."
The hatred that will never cease will become more and more intense as time goes by, and finally burn everything, including oneself. What will be left? No one knows, what will be left if it is not burned out? No one knows that pain and despair are intertwined, and sorrow and hope resonate with each other.
"The only person I hate is myself. I hate my own powerlessness. As an enemy, he did nothing wrong. I should hate him but I shouldn't. I should hate myself the most because I am powerless and unable to prevent the tragedy from happening. This is the real reason for everything. If it weren't for him, there would be other similar people in the world..."
I started to talk in front of the mirror. After I said it out loud, I felt a lot more relaxed. It seemed that most of the time I could only pour out my heart in front of the mirror, even if that heart was not pure and beautiful, even if it was filled with pain and sorrow...
I love you, I don't love you.